Mad Hatteress

2012 Goals

I’ve lost 5lbs. I’m in the process of moving into a new apartment. I want to be a critical care nurse. I don’t have the luxury of moving to the states and completing college. I wont be financially stable, and it wouldn’t be fair to live off my friends for x amount of years. Plus, even if I go to school and become a EMT it doesn’t mean I’ll find a job as a EMT. So here it is. My last resort.

I’m a Army Brat. I have avoided at all cost to join the service. Though I love the men and women who serve. I respect them! I envy them, I just never thought I had what it takes. Now that I volunteer in the ER, I see that I do have what it takes and I love the military more then most of the Airmen that I meet. I have 3 goals before I talk to my Army Recruiter at Yonsan Garrison.

1. Pay off my Tickets. $1,611.00

a. Re-Establish my licence, since it’s currently suspended do to not paying.

2. Weight 150lbs.

a. Be able to pass Army PT test. (Run/Sit ups/Push ups)

3. Have 48 college credits.

a. Maintain a 4.0 in General Education.

After this… In order to be a Health Care Specialist in the Army (68W) I need a 101 in ST, 104 in GT. Make sure I start as a E-3, and qualify for all bonuses. Speak to them about completing my degree in Nursing. Go Green to Gold~ Become a Nurse/Officer in the Army. I want to be in Afghanistan. After reading Paradise General… I knew where I belonged.

I want a relationship, but maybe I’m just better on my own. I can never seem to keep one, either I want to end it, or when I really like someone they lose interest. I need to stop wasting time on my heart ache and move on. The high that I get when I help other medically is the best feeling I have ever felt. Better than anytime I thought I was in love. heh… I guess you could say… I feel called.

I pray every night. I am skeptical on religion, but I do believe that there is a God out there. Praying/speaking to him helps me through my day. It helps me stay strong and focused. So I’ll continue to keep it up.

Wise Words I’ve heard…

Don’t Give Up!

Keep your composure!

Don’t let the way others think affect you!

Don’t Assume Anything!

Be Open & Honest!

If they don’t chase you when you walk away, keep walking!

Sometimes the truth is there is nothing anyone can do!

Nothing is Personal!

Most kinds of power require a substantial sacrifice by whoever wants the power. There is an apprenticeship, a disapline lasting many years. Whatever kind of power you want. President of the company. Black belt in karate. Spiritual guru. Whatever it is you seek, you have to put in the time, the practice, the effort. You must give up a lot to get it. It has to be very important to you. And once you have attained it, it is your power. It can’t be given away: it resides in you. It is literally the result of your discipline.

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—	Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

Today I weigh 193lbs

B: 44’
W: 34’
H: 44’

I’m blessed with an hour glass figure.

Soon I’ll be turning 24. I just want to finally take control of my diet & fitness. I know there are millions who share my struggle and that I am not alone in this.

I wish there was an easy way, but nothing worth having is ever easy.

I’ll continue to keep up my 4.0, I’ll continue to work and volunteer, and hope the time flies till I’ll reach my goal.

I don’t have a “weight” or “measurement” that I specifically want to reach. I’m not interested in being super thin, but wish to be fit and toned. I like being curvy, but there are limits and I’m in between average and obese (according to American Health Standards).

On a side note… THANK GOD DIABLO III IS FINALLY OUT! <3 Now I have a legitimate excuse not to go out and party and throw off my diet! ;)

I believe in you, you who struggle with me.

Something I need to keep in mind, concerning men. It seems every time I finally share my heart, they keep it just long enough then they fade away leaving me confused and hurt.

“If they don’t chase you when you walk away, keep walking.”

Fuck them haters, I love you!

<3Kara